Helloooo.... Anyone here????

So this forum has been silent for quite the while. Perhaps everyone got busy. Or, perhaps, this medium has jumped its proverbial "shark" for the particular demographic of the four bloggers here. Or maybe they have been blessed with so many of the slings, arrows and blessings of life they have not had time to type. Nonetheless, here I am... calling out into the wilderness.

In the years that have passed since I have given voice to my inner monologue here, I have been given more than I could have asked for. In my dotage, I finally understand what great fortune is. It is measured by turns. Life gives. It takes away. And not in silly measured terms, but in searing and exhilarating ways, in turn. I finally know great love, and each day, I am exponentially more grateful for it (and exponentially more amazed at my heart's capacity to grow and accomodate this unfathomable (no adjective I have learned to this point in my nerdy life can even begin to do it justice) love. I also know great tragedy -- a searing family issue that also cannot be done justice in a single adjective. My life is so far from perfect and yet I am ecstatic. I could not want for more emotional support. I am loved in a way I have never known. Friends, family, partner -- I am taken care of in ways I cannot begin to articulate or deserve.

Noentheless, I am grateful to know and recognize love. Lucky, lucky, lucky girl.

I did not start to type to brag. I had meant to articulate a new maturity. That may have been ambitious. Or it may have been paradoxical -- new maturity does not give flower to describing such realization. Nonetheless, I just wanted to say thank you -- to my friends, my family, my dearest love who lives in and constantly expands my heart in ways I didn't know was possible and makes me a better person every day -- I am lucky. Lucky.

Lucky.

Lucky.

Lucky.

Thank you. :)